I hate life.
 

Too much homework, hardly any sleep, no time for food, minimal friends, maximum anxiety at school from the gross of people. I wish I had the balls to Cobain myself.

Blah blah teenage angst blah blah. I just need a distraction.

too much vajayjay talk, if you want my opinion.

kurt-cabooming yourself is for pussies.

Yes.


Yes.


No money for food.


A few decent ones = enough for me.


Fair enough.


Don't do that.

let me just ellaborate on my first post & say that you're a hell of a lot more interesting when you're not hiding behind sex/vaginas/masturbation/ every other post.

you're really smart & funny and creative, and if you can't find too many friends at school you'll find them later on. school is just not for everyone. for me it was like prison.

and yeah i get it that you're desperate, and in more ways than one, but it's the same with everyone at some point. and eventually, it gets better.

but really hm the more you are open to other people (i.e. not hiding behind vaginas) the more they'll get a chance to discover the cool aspects of your personality. some times you just need to risk the chance.

Don't worry life will get better, it does if you insist on it. Friends you are not missing much, but be very selective because if you just choose random friends it just becomes a bore with them.

I really don't talk all that much about vaginas in real life. Well I don't really talk at all. I'm just obnoxious on here because I can be.
This thread was kind of pointless and impulsive. I don't even really know what's going on. There are cat ears on my speakers.. Happy Halloween!

But thanks for the advice, 'tis 'preciated.

This is all true. I didn't have a set group of friends until I was a senior in high school. I can't really remember what I did before that...just whatever I felt like I guess.

I didn't make friends my first semester at ECC (where I am now), but I enjoyed being around the people I had in my classes. Also I was just coming off of a bad experience at my old college and I wasn't so much in the friend-making mood. This semester I do have friends, but it didn't happen instantly. It is true that once I started acting like my normal self in front of these people, it was easier to make friends with them.

I agree with what Lux said. Be yourself, if people don't like it screw them.

well yes, it is evident that the vagina schtick is a ruse to hide your sensitive and shy self. (still, it gets tiresome). so i can only extrapolate that you still hide yourself in "real life".

so my point-- what is my point? when you're schtick-free you're really cool, and yeah it takes time & patience to find the people who can appreciate that, but (as with the talk of vaginas), remaining hidden will push potential friends away.

my point is... what is my point? oh i have no point.

anyway, highschool is a good time to learn useful social skills. even if you're surrounded by pricks, you need to learn to get along with them, because they control valuable resources you need.

so-- not everybody needs to be your friend, but it's important to learn to dance-- hello, goodbye, laugh at jokes, make jokes, etc. the more comfortable you are with these stupid rituals the more you can show your true self and actually meet interesting people who are compatible with you.

but anyway. i need dinner.

I don't really have a hard time making friends, I know tons of cool people who like me and whatever. But I met a lot of them on Myspace (which is totally lame, yet, totally 2007) and I just have trouble maintaining them and/or becoming close with them.

I'm complaining way too much and it's bugging me. I wonder what good candy my sister got..
I just called someone "dawg" -definitely a sign of overtiredness.

I love school. Well, learning. Learning makes me feel like I'm improving myself. And we can all use improvements.

But I want it to be over so I can get out of here and leave for college.

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don't listen to !@#$%!'s last part of the post!

sure, you have to coexist with people, but fuck trying to get along with them, be yourself and surround yourself with people you're comfortable with, if you can't find any, be comfortable with yourself and honest with yourself.

basically, chill out, don't intellectualize this too much and you'll find yourself out of this anxiety heavy period before you know it.

hit & run.

well hm of course you're going to have trouble becoming close to people when you maintain things at a superficial level-- take this very post, for example. here you start saying something real and interesting, but then you get shy and the distractions pop up-- candy, dawg, whatever-- crap.

just have the balls to be yourself, you know? sure not everyone is going to like you, nobody is liked by everyone, but at least you'll know that those who like you really do. in other words-- nut up, and speak your mind:p

Honesty and tact work on equal measures.

surrounding yourself with yourself is bad in chess and bad business, and it will keep you poor for life. getting along with people is an important skill-- mere diplomacy-- separate from real friendships. "good morning this is my photo portfolio, this is what i charge per session, you can find me at this number, have a nice day". you gotta fucking have that or you're crippled.

I feel the same, most of the time. When there's something I don't understand I'm too stubborn to ask because I don't like feeling stupid hah.

That's really good advice, thank you.


I do agree that getting along with people is a good skill to have, and I really don't have a problem with that in most cases. It just depends on the situation. If it's someone I'm just meeting, then I'm totally fine, but if it's an idiot/ass/twatgobbler then I (naturally) don't get along with them well.

i agree wholeheartedly but she's in high school, those are things she'll pick up but first she has to be true to herself so she can differentiate between people like this and people that are genuinely cool people.

it's one thing to be in a work situation and another to be with the cliques and the popular dipshits etc. etc.

i usually agree with your advices, and this one is good in a more mature situation, but not in her case.

besides, i think she does handle herself well in situations like that, or so it seems.

that is a fucked up way to describe your frustrations.

Angella, I used to be in your place, and from experience I can tell you that if you work your ass off, and don't give up you will be fine. Remember that your problems are temporary, that is something I learned the hard way. But it is true.

hm.... yeah, i hear what you're saying. but some of her complaints are of a social nature, and she said somewhere that she "says nothing" when she's with people.

im not trying to say "learn to hang out with the popular dipshits", and if that's what i conveyed, i apologize. what i meant to say (if i didn't say it correctly) is learn to navigate the popular dipshits, and whatever life throws at you. she's already extremely shy, and she won't learn anything by further contracting (sorry angella, i dont mean to put you in the spot, and i do think you're really cool).

goethe said something about talent being best formed in solitude but character best formed in society-- or something like that. the talents and the solitude she's got in spades, but she needs to come out of her shell for her talents to shine outwards. that's always a tough move.

i remember when i was 14 i was super shy and i knew something was wrong ,cos i was unable to do a lot of things other kids did. so i asked my mom to take me to a shrink, because i was having problems functioning socially. long story short, the guy gave me a placebo that filled me with the idea that i had self-confidence, which gave me the courage to face my fears (sort of like dumbo's magic feather?). soon enough i was a completely different person in my outward behavior, and that opened a lot of doors, etc. but anyway, i'm not trying to write an autobiography, just to explain what i mean here about people needing to come out of their shells.

so, hm. yeah. i just ate some flounder and it was GOOD.

Yeah, I've definitely been trying. And I've been in the mindset lately that the things I do won't matter a year from now (mainly just me fretting over a speech I wrote that is complete shit) so I should just get it done with and move on.

Yes, Angella do the things and move on. A healthy way is to laugh at your past mistakes, and learn from them. But also remember that one bad experience does not neccesarily mean it will always be like that. So you have to learn to differentiate which ones where bad for life, and which are okay to re-try.

!@#$%!- I think I know what you mean, I was an extrovert, and now that i am comfortable with myself I talk to people for no reason. It is just that I was shy, and that whole fiasco earlier this year, and so forth.

Just one thing, be careful to avoid posting your problems on an interweb forum... just saying...

Why is it that I have every reason to be incredibly depressed and want to kill myself but don't, and instead relish my meaningless trapped existence of being a young man with severe mental issues who doesn't have the desire to overcome his shortcomings because everything in the world has left him with a sour taste in his mouth?

Maybe it is just like everything else. I don't desire a girlfriend enough to get one. I don't desire to move out enough to do it. I don't desire to really make a go of music to do it. I don't desire eternal silence enough either.

*shrug*


Anyways. . . there is always something else to wait for or something else to do. You could kill yourself, but then you won't get a chance to listen to SY's next album or see them or again. And you won't be able to ever enjoy apple pie again. Or to masturbate again.

Apple pie is a great reason not to kill yourself.

Yeah life at the moment is kinda crap. School is a bunch of shit and all we get is fucking homework. Haven't had free time in ages.

Take a walk around places like this:





They might give you some inspiration.

Vagina! Cock! Cunt! Prick! Tits! Anus!

Help me Dr. Phil! You are my only hope. :rolleyes:

Ps: What a load of hogwash.

this place is the perfect distraction. hope you feel better soon.

I've nothing to add that won't sound patronising.

Basically, it's life. You gotta live with it.

The Cobain comment was half-sarcastic ..just part of my lame/sick humor. Eee.

Fair enough. I do like the phrase "Cobaining" though.

I feel yr pain.

people.....

*shudders*


don't deny the girl her simple pleasures.

Just focus on school work / what you are good at doing. Chill with the other stuff.

There seems to be, especially in college, almost this manic social pressure, that if you're not a piece of some Jungian Zune Monkey Mess then there's something wrong with you. This is not accurate. [aside: This is perpetrated by professors (possibly unconsciously) who benefit from uncomfortable students.]

Social navigation IS important, but it is not worth losing sleep over. If you excel with your passion and do good work, then people come to you and will be more willing to forgive an awkward phrase or social gaffe.

Also moderate internet, minimal television, more walking, and a box of dependent creatures or plants.

This post has been brought to you by Dr. Kloriel from the "Yeah, Like That" Association. Repeatedly kidnapping Busta Rhymes since 1954.

Stop whinging and get on with your own life. That might really help.

YES

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTmHS-T5dLA

I seem to be the only one who noticed.

ha ha ha

i love that fucking scene

when her dad sez "rimjob". priceless

*:D*

Seriously though, I'm sure you'll be ok Anngella.