[Nefeli]

yeah in that case, it is sad.
in other cases, like being daydreamer, it isnt that bad.

we only live once, time passes by fast etc; why should one suffer in that department too blablabla.
but i dont know..do you think they fear the moment of coming out and making the change in their lives, or about what their life will be after it is changed? i think its the 2nd, the unknown. even if it means they might be happier. on the other hand, i cant believe how one can live in a lie. it is unbearable.

[Nefeli]

i love you too.
do both or whatever you prefer.

[Genteel Death]

The coming out bit is proving too devastating a burden on a very close friend of mine's relationship. With no thanks for him for trying to make it work either.

[Genteel Death]

I am fine myself.

[Nefeli]

kind of irrelevant*, but i am deeper in the war against the guilt syndrome.
i realised it last night. its not only just words 'im fighting guilts etc', i actually am doing it. by reflex, my mind changed its path about smth i was told yesterday. gave a kick to the guilts it created. but im telling you, its not always liberating.

*and vague and i dont have the need to say more about this here.

[Nefeli]

Originally Posted by Genteel Death

The coming out bit is proving too devastating a burden on a very close friend of mine's relationship. With no thanks for him for trying to make it work either.

yeah that is always the risk.
but he felt better with himself, no? thats what counts.
if you are losing yourself, thats the worst feeling and state. you cant handle anything.

[Genteel Death]

Originally Posted by Nefeli

yeah that is always the risk.
but he felt better with himself, no? thats what counts.
if you are losing yourself, thats the worst feeling and state. you cant handle anything.

I have been friends with this person for a long time and he's one my best friends. He's very, very sophisticated in his thinking and often loose in his chit-chat when we meet. Because you have to let your guard off while you spend time with your friends, don't you? Still, he's been with a guy from a strong religious background for the past 2 years who's heavily controlled by his family, who depends a lot on him, down to running the family business. He came out to his sister as gay and she freaked out and gave him a CD that apparently is meant to cure his homosexuality. We often laugh about this but for the first time I noticed signs of stress on my mate's face last night. It's quite a mess in words and maybe it's gonna work out for the best but right now there are so many things my friend doesn't know or has control on it's difficult to tell where the whole story will lead to.

[Nefeli]

i cannot help but thinking, that in situations like this, when the one partner is in the closet, the other plays a role and has the task if s/he decides to, that is beyond the relationship. it has to do with the troubled person. its the role of the savior, in some ways and it is a lot to take in for both parts.
i am afraid that in the end, the one who is 'saved' cant be with his savior any longer. s/he has changed, might feel inferior (cant find better word now), might feel free to do things s/he couldnt before.
the worst-worst scenario is that the person in trouble, is using the other, without realizing. and that can be traumatizing as well, especially if its not perceived in a 'healthy' way, again by both parts.

thats just some thoughts i have, doesnt mean that this is the case.
and of course it all depends, on both parts characters and how strong they have built their relationship etc.

[floatingslowly]

It's ok, murmur69, I too am an emo.faggot. I have a song written about me by weezer, for fuck's sake.

That's emo.faggot as fuck imo.

Snuggle now, you fuck.

People suck and fridays are often overrated.

[Bytor Peltor]

Originally Posted by floatingslowly

People suck and fridays are often overrated.

Best part about working at night......most days I'm home at 5pm when everyone else is starting the dreaded commute home. All that wasted time sitting bumper to bumper

[!@#$%!]

im home on tuesday night

[Nefeli]

classic of me:
the plan is to stay in the weekend; a friend called to go to a dm party.
and i m down, so i ll go.

[_slavo_]

dm party.

i'd kill for that right now.

instead, i'll be going to an ELELMENTARY SCHOOL REUNION (yes, for real).
i'm going to get horribly drunk, i'm afraid.

[Nefeli]

is it a first time reunion? i mean, have you seen those people since then?
i hope you ll have good times..might happen, you know.


i dunno what to wear.
i think i ll do my 99% cowboy look. have only done it 1 or 2 times.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by _slavo_

d
instead, i'll be going to an ELELMENTARY SCHOOL REUNION (yes, for real).

i've been laughing at this uncontrollably for a while now.

but why do you go?

[_slavo_]

Originally Posted by !@#$%!

i've been laughing at this uncontrollably for a while now.

but why do you go?

i will go, in about 15 minutes.

i dunno, all of my ex-schoolmates from elementary schools have searched each other on facebook and someone came up with the idea of a reunion evening in a bar.

it might be a good idea, after all. i've been so bored for the past few days anyway (i'm out of Bratislava in my tiny hometown and there's not much to do here), that even this sounds like a promising plan.

[_slavo_]

Originally Posted by Nefeli

is it a first time reunion? i mean, have you seen those people since then?
i hope you ll have good times..might happen, you know.


i dunno what to wear.
i think i ll do my 99% cowboy look. have only done it 1 or 2 times.

cowboy look, but topless.

trust me, it will work.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by _slavo_

i will go, in about 15 minutes.

i dunno, all of my ex-schoolmates from elementary schools have searched each other on facebook and someone came up with the idea of a reunion evening in a bar.

it might be a good idea, after all. i've been so bored for the past few days anyway (i'm out of Bratislava in my tiny hometown and there's not much to do here), that even this sounds like a promising plan.

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh....

it all makes sense now i suppose. have fun and yeah-- you're definitely gonna get drunk

[h8kurdt]

Friday party is NOT here. I'm just gonna spend the night watching super old films and maybe drinking.

[the ikara cult]

Good evening, Friday night dwellers. Im watching this, howsabout you?