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Maybe a 2... I'm beginning to hate myself.
I feel like I'm too different in too many ways from the average people that surround me... I can't relate to them and they can't relate to me. I can't be myself... I don't even know how and I dont feel like its what anyone wants me to do...
I don't hate other people... I just don't relate to them. I don't really know what I want out of life anymore.. I just feel like I'm doing things just so that there is a chance things could get better eventually..
I don't want to kill myself.. but I don't enjoy living. I have no real passion for anything that matters anymore, I feel neither highs nor lows, just complete blah.
I just want people (who aren't my family) to actually care about me.. and want to be with me.. I want to learn to love myself again.
I don't know why I'm posting this here.. I have to get it out somewhere.
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I can't find that painting.
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