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being sick with high fever sucks big time.
i dont do high fever, it is not my system's thing.
i go up to 38C, feel like a wreck and get all the other stuff that last more than 2 weeks. but this time i did and it was horrible. at some points, i was thinking i can understand how people were dying from it. i mean, i had that feel.
but thats not what it is about.
last night the fever wore off, but i couldnt sleep.
i slept 4 hours and the first part of the sleep was one of the most bizarre 'sort of sleeping paralysis' that i get.
it was coming in waves, dragging me in the paralysis, fighting and getting out from it for a sec and then been sucked in again. and i use these verbs, because it was spacey, being pulled inside my bed, the bed sucked in aswell, spitted out and then inside again. everything like waves.
at some point i tried to turn it into sexual for my benefit -and i mention this because once someone told me here that i can turn it into something i want and now i understand what he meant- but that didnt work, nor lasted for long. i can say that the whole thing was mild, the element of fear still there though and it lasted longer than other times. actually i wasnt sure if it was going to end.
then i had dream. all to say about the dream is that in the house i was supposed to be staying, i couldnt find my bed.
basically fuck all that. had really boring 3 days, so i guess that was my gift of excitement.
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