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The bad news:
People will always suck and society will always be a pain in the ass to live in. The monumental nature of your predicament will never change. I am sorry to say this, but this has been my experience.
The good news:
You will develop the tools to combat this in time. These will likely include a high-functioning, complex denial system and an ability to eventually construct a societal "bubble" in which you can insulate yourself with the few other souls you find to be of like mind and temperament. You will be blissfully unaware of "general society" most of the time.
You will still have episodes of rageful despair, but they will happen less often. The downside to that is the fact that they will be pretty severe. You will learn to concentrate on retaining a shred of your soul and preserving your own world; this will be easier when you are out of school and "general society" plays less of a major role in your life.
I'm not trying to patronize you or minimize the way you are feeling, because in many ways I feel the same. It might not get a LOT better, but it will get better, especially relative to how much you actually have to deal with general societal crap.
I'm not trying to pull the whole "lemme tell you how it is, sonny" trip on you either, I swear. You can take it or leave it, of course.
I'm just trying to say I sympathize with your point of view.
You can commence with continued cutting remarks about my value as a human being now.
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