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more than half a year ago i tried tripping for the first (and last) time, what an awful experience, i felt like i was going to die.
since then i've been thinking about death (particularly being dead, not the process of dying itself) a lot. sometimes it scares me so much to know one day i won't exist anymore that i feel like throwing up.
what is it like to be dead? do you move into the next world (doubt that shit)? are you re-born? do you just disappear/rest forever?
i think the death of a person IS a big deal. otherwise there would be no difference between the death of a human being and the death of a fly.
this fear of death makes me wanna bring kids into this world. knowing i'll have one or more children is the ONLY way i can let my mind relax each time.
i wanna be such a badass human being and go down as a legend. more than anything, i want my father to be proud of me.
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