Thanks guys. Yr helpin a lot. And just to clarify, I know and appreciate the value of hard work. I worked all through college and past until about a month ago and I grew up in a poor humble Mexican family. I'm just saying I can't really see myself doing any job without being miserable. Maybe I'm fed up. I'm half hoping it's just a phase and that I'll eventually straighten out or something but then that seems so sad to the person I am now. And the person I am now would hate that. It's weird. Like if I have a normal life with a normal job I'll be miserable but If I am the way I am now I'll still be fucked up. Man. Sorry if I sound downerish just realizing that now reading my posts but whatever. But yeah thanks guys.
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