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okay, schizo, so, i did not forget.

seems very entangled and let me summarize if i understood correctly

- you're with a dude but want a different one who is impossible

- current dude is demanding but in a good way?

- i didn't understand the age difference. both are old? if that's the case-- neither of them is the new york dude of your teenage tales?

just to make sure i'm clear. "macho brain" needs bullet points.