Had a terrible dream about my grandfather, to the extent that I'm crying in bed at 4am.
Not going to share the details, but I think there's a few things with it: I don't like thinking about the past and what I was like in it, because I was way more obviously autistic and it embarrasses me - but I was also way more 'innocent' and careless, and I look at what I'm like now. And then at the same time I'm scared of the future - and of losing things / people I care about.
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Making myself up as I go along. Check out my music-themed blog, 79:57.
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