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i said that? god damn i was out of control. i remember little of that night, but i remember i hated the crowd & the way they reacted to chan (they made her feel unwelcome, in my drunken opinion). from there i went nuts. i remember telling someone to go to back to their boring yuppie life or something.

i was thrown out of the place hours later. i was in the bar and i have no idea of what i said. god damn. i felt like hugh firmin in "under the volcano"