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all i want is to be left alone by everyone and be alone and paint. paint smth good and not like those 2 turds i did since saturday.
last morning my pulse was up to 100.
i m having atm the 3rd mini anxiety crisis. i think thats what it is.
i ll take a shower later and go to the pharmacy to measure my basics.
and will have the day for me, as i used to.
what was going on is that dear person of mine has been to the hospital.
for a month now and some time before that. he is getting out tomorrow.
trhere were a couple of times i wanted to rant about it here and i needed it badly but didnt out of discretion for him. he almost died 3 times.
he ll be ok - if his personality lets him. because we have to deal with that as well.
and it has been too much.
the sadness unbearable, the hours..well almost all day there.
and thats the reason i havent been painting.
no need pls to comment to all that. thank you. for any thoughts etc.
i want him to get well and me get back to my stuff for the time i have left.
which is not much.
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