[schizophrenicroom]

i do too. but there's another 500 films i need to watch. my mom and i have a blockbuster.com queue that's getting way out of hand.

i didn't write about it before, but i want to put my grandma's passing on my list. my whole world has become so different in the six months (it doesn't even feel like six months) and the empty feeling i get when i come home and i don't hear her singing songs she learned in the bomb shelters back during wwii or dancing with my brother to herb alpert is one i don't think i'll ever not feel walking through the front door. but she helped me become more independent. before september- honest to god- i had never done a load of laundry. i felt stupid tossing my stuff in the washer asking my mom what the hell i was supposed to do.