really neither here nor there, but i finally- finally- am trying out a small dose of ritalin daily, just in the morning about an hour after i eat, and holy shit... this is what being a normal fucking person feels like. sat down, made my daily to do list, did it, etc. not hearing that stupid nagging self-doubter in my head. fuck, man.
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fuck i'm frustrated, freaking out something fierce, would you help me? i'm hungry and i stuffer and i startle, i struggle and i stammer til i'm up to my ears in miserable quote unquote "art"
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