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this thread makes me feel so good in that I dont feel alone. I had a meltdown a couple years back and came here asking for advice. you guys were real comforting. Thanks !@#$%! yr pms really helped and I dont think Ive said thanks. But yea I kinda had another meltdown last week and quit my job. A shitty ass grocery store job. I couldnt take it. I was having serious suicidal thoughts so I quit cause I know those are bad haha. I don't have a job currently but I really am happy now. I havent felt the need to nor have i smoked weed or drank alcohol since I quit. And i was getting high every day. Maybe its cause i quit i dunno. I have a job interview tomorrow to substitute teach in a school district near me. I dont have a passion for it but im just trying it. hopefully ill like it and hopefully theyll hire me. I wish I was actually interested in shit so i could get a job in it. But i literally have no interest in any career field. Theyre all just careers to me. Something Ill have to do for the rest of my life. that shit sounds depressing to me. Sometimes I just think I'm too weird and awkward to function in this society. Id go to work everyday and wonder how do all of my coworers do it. dont they care? how do they do this shit everyday and not care? but I gotta stick it out i guess. part of me just wants to become a bum/street musician.
theres a storm coming... hopefully
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