[schizophrenicroom]

i just have issues falling for dudes who I feel are looking for a girl to complete them or have some idealized notion of that, if that makes sense. like, I've lived with an SO once and we had so many issues of control because I surpassed him in a lot of ways and he was mad that I wasn't the girl on his level so to speak. not the dude I'm seeing, but the guy I think I love... I don't have to be anything to him and that's a very liberating aspect of our friendship. he just seems to be so aloof and guarded (same age difference as the other guy, if it makes a difference.) y'all guys are just as mystifying. I've tried.