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Originally Posted by LifeDistortion
I think to some extent my entire music collection is one big guilty pleasure.
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I don't know about guilt, but I do feel silly about mostly everything I like, because listening to music is sort of a silly way to spend one's time. Often I have to stop and ask myself why I'm wasting my life bothering with music, and why I'm not doing something more productive and all that jazz. And then I go through phases where I try to take up some new hobby, but it never works out because I'm not very talented.
It's sort of like that one time my art teacher found out that I liked The Birthday Party, and he didn't believe me at first because I look like I'm about 12 years old on a good day, and then he wanted to talk to me about The Birthday Party, but I feel really stupid talking about The Birthday Party and pretty much all other music. Even with people who I know wouldn't mind being talked to about those things.
Which in turn reminds me of when I was probably 8 years old and all my friends were into buying CDs, and I really wanted to buy a CD too, except I was too afraid to tell my mom that I wanted her to take me to Music Biz so I could buy a CD, so I just never brought it up. Because even if my mom had said yes, I was too afraid to go into the actual store and pick out a CD and bring it to the checkout counter. Music has embarrassed me my whole life. It has always seemed really, really silly. I mean I honestly wish I had a number of other interests to focus on, but I only have maybe a few others that involve even a less amount of fun than listening to music.
Two music-related things I will talk about without reserve are: the show "Nashville Star" and Marilyn Manson.