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Originally Posted by alteredcourse
I have to twack off anger at the ridiculousness of calling any death "natural", nevertheless one at age 32. Yeah, your time is run out...I say!
A death like this just makes me be presumptuous that it's about drugs, and though of course theres room to be wrong, it just makes me think of anyone who ends up this way. How many mornings did she stand up in the shower, watching the tiles glow and blearily change places like some kind of giant tarot grid while letting the drool drip off her worn open jaw with the shower jets.
I can only assume this wasnt some chance occasion, but the result of a habit. Fucking heart attack. What could drive a person that way? Dont say "fame". What did this girl think at 4 am, when the cigarettes were burnt out and the rest of the room had fallen asleep.
Like I said, it's not so much about her, as about anyone that just so totally gets pulled into such...distraction. They say anyone can get addicted to drugs, but I think theres a certain personality that kinda gives themselves up for it. Theres a vulnerability.
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you should speak at the funeral. seriously i thought that was excellent. I've been in that shower and seen those tiles myself and all i can say is when your in total psychosis getting fucked up on drugs feels at least different and becomes the only time you can convince yourself things are ok. getting off drugs feels like getting even more mad for a while, so its not as simple as just sobering up like people think. i imagine it would take drugs to be able to handle the self hatred that being a celebrity must bring.