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Originally Posted by alteredcourse
Sometimes, it's not just YOU. (you you you you you you you YOUUUU!) . But a process. Something relatable to human nature. Doesnt that make things feel better? But what you do with yourself adds.
My mother and older brother revealed stints of over-anxiety in their twenties. It made me wonder if it was simply a general enactment of genetic processing that I was enduring. But you know...my environment was foolish. Too much E, whiskey and speed. So it was like I took an overly sensitive nervous system and pounded it into the dirt. I believe in all this because of how long of a recovery I've had to take. It's taken a LOT to recover.
I dont know what lifestyle you have. But even more basic dietary misalignments can cause disarray in ultra sensitive ecosystems.
I'm searching for a point, and I think it's in how my family has nervous issues. Sometimes you simply grow out of it. And then from that, sometimes a person reacts by adding. I think I've tried to shock myself into changing away from my circumstances. That if I didnt know what I wanted, that by traumatizing myself, I'd somehow develop something useful and binding out of necessity. But forcing myself hasnt worked. It's merely excuses, like silent noise.
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I'd like to say that I've never abused my mind/body but I have. Only to escape when I've already put myself into situations that are so draining mentally physically or both..
Last night I was talking about something similar.. how much control you can have over what happens to you vs how you react vs what your body will react to because of yr own distinctive makeup.
What else have you chanaged, apart from staying away from booze and amphets?