[batreleaser]

i was addicted to oxycontin and heroin for about 2 years. been clean for a year in a week. i originally went stone sober for 8 months, no drinking, no grass, nothing. in that time i got my life back on track. slowly but surely i felt comfortorable having a drink again, and weed is actually coming back to me, but i might get a prescription for it for anxiety (i got anxiety major, but i hate benzodiazipines, weed is the only thing that workls for me). bottom line, i shouldnt be doing anything, but im doing really good now, i feel content. anyone who needs to quit something, know this: it SUCKS getting clean. you most likely have fucked up the relationships with your straight friends, and your dope buds will drop you because you cant party anymore. you will feel extremly akward, and the months that follow the initial sickness are waaaaay worse than the physical symptoms. diraehha and a fever and nausea are not nearly as bad as neverending boredom, depression, anxiety, and a feeling of empitiness thats extremly hard to shake. but, it goes away, and eventually the friends will come back, the ones that matter anyways, and you will feel amazing. so, yheah, im a drug addict, but, you gotta deal with it, right?