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i know how you feel cantanky, and actually, i think you're great because you actually went ahead and just went to be alone for a while. i'm not saying it's good or bad, but every time i've felt like sending everybody to hell, i never follow through.
GENERAL DISCUSSION:
i've been dealing with depression for quite a while now, and it's because shit happens really; bunch of crap has been changing in my life in the past couple of years and i still feel most of my life is in a huge transitional state and i have no idea when the transition will happen and i'll move on; sometimes i feel happy, sometimes i feel like not getting out of bed, sometimes i feel so angry i break shit, sometimes i want to talk to everybody and sometimes i want all of them to leave me the hell alone. mostly, it's that sometimes i feel like my life is ok and everything is going good and sometimes i feel like life has passed me by and that i really want to do something but can't. most of the time i'm ok and i'm ready to accept that this perhaps is just boredom.
now i'm going to tell you about my friend, she has out of balance levels of serotonin which means she is technically insane; she's already ended up in the hospital twice for attempted suicide when she stopped taking her medication. she goes to a psychiatrist once a week, she prescribes her medicine and listens to her and gives her a bit of perspective; her medicine actually helps her a lot since she's normal and sane mostly (aside from the fact that she becomes obsessive with whatever she likes at the moment), she gets drunk really easily but when she smokes pot she's like a normal stoner (i've warned her not to take any other drug because all of them affect serotonins). she gets side and happy like everybody.
i personally think psychologists and psychitrists are a croak mostly, crazed bored fucks who yawn at your problems and try to throw theirs to you, my friend loves going to therapy and she trusts her psych a lot. talking to your problems does help, tons, sometimes you need advise or perspective and sometimes you just need to be heard.
that's my stance on therapy, i don't think drugs are the answer at all unless you have a physical problem like my friend; depression doesn't count. and yeah, we're all fucked up, we just have to deal with it and not be taken under by it.
ps: i seem to always end up liking completely deranged girls, it's something i really don't see why but most of the time that i meet a girl and i like her, she turns out completely insane. i need help with this problem.
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