SHELFLIFE#12A: ALWAYS SEEMS TO MOVE SO SLOW
[BUILT] 05.16.2008 by visitordesign
I’ve mentioned before that I was asked to create and gather work from material in my archive for the upcoming Sensational Fix
touring Sonic Youth exhibition. Something I’d been meaning to make for a long time, but never got around to–until last week–was an impressionistic audio/video collage about the making of Harmony Korine’s Sunday
I shot 3 hours of material the day Harmony made the video. That was over 11 years ago, and re-visiting such old footage is difficult. Different equipment, shooting styles, subject-focus… I get this one thing I want to make–it’s done in my head–been done for years–ready to encode, burn and rip–but I jog thru the footage and the fragments I’ve edited in my memory don’t exist on the tapes. I experienced them, but never recorded them. Maybe I misremembered them over time.
So, a simple 8-minute edit becomes this painful exercise in compromising memory while trying to convey some sense of the experience to a viewer. All the while, I don’t really want to convey the experience–at all. I never really do. I just want to frustrate people, so I’m not so isolated in my perplexed recollection. This is why I’ll never be a real filmmaker. I’ve got no stories to tell. I’ve just got this compulsion to document things and these thoughts I reflect on while I re-examine footage. I lack a fundamental interest in structure and basically want a viewer to vicariously experience my high blood pressure, confusion and angina more than anything else. Always Seems So Slow
is pretty representative of that process–but somehow, the jarring sound edit, lack of anchors and surreal, sensual and sensational subject matter make angina slightly endearing.
Maybe I’ll stream it after the opening on June 17th. For now, I leave you with stills.