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As I mentioned earlier, I recently had a steamy backseat car dream very shortly before being involved in some car related debauchery. In the dream I was in the car on the way to lunch. At lunch I didn't have any money and so I had to ask her to pay for me.
The next day I wrote a song about the dream that related feelings of being dominated (she was on top of me), feelings of being in debt and chained to this girl(she paid for my lunch), as well as feelings of strong previous attraction that warranted no need to be chained through debt because there already was an emotional one.
What is interesting is that the actual event that happened several days later I decided to bring money with me when going for a ride with a girl and 2 other people (I paid for my food) and the car event (which happened after) had similar repercussions to the dream. In the real event just like the dream, there was touching and physically closeness involved but no sex. The next day I decided I felt bad because I must have stimulated new emotions towards me. However, my analysis wasn't the case. I ended up realizing that I always liked this girl and that I felt I wanted to do things for her very similar to my dream/song. Here is where the lesson comes in: I got my hopes up for a girl that I never meant to start anything with and then was let down, then I felt burdened that I had promised to do several things for her.
So I think my subconcious could have been warning me that something like this might happen, because subconciously I knew that I liked this girl and something was bound to happen.
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