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true . i feel sheepish right now , as after having stayed away from cigs (apart from while drinking ) for over a year , id been telling my baby brother to get the hell away from the smokes . and here i am , rekindling my love with cigarettes . merely a couple weeks ago , ive been smoking again . i havent peeled off my nails once during this time , oddly (normally they cant grow a cunthairs length without me ripping at them ) . and i like them . they relieve some stress and it feels good to take a second and sit right down and breathe the fumes , all my own cancerous goodness .
i initially quit the year + change ago becuase after smoking for 8 years it was no longer about sitting down amongst the various madnesses of the day and indulging . whether i wanted to smoke or not , i had to have a smoke . when it was clearly an addiction , and about control , and my lack of it , is when i decided i had had enough . quitting wasnt so bad . i would rather not have the habit of course - the price just keeps getting higher - but i do love to smoke .
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