ha ha ha ha ha
if you had told me three years ago, given the severe trauma i have with christianity, that i would be soon looking for jewish libraries, i would have laughed until i died at the absurdity
laughed until i died
do you have any idea what god did to me? it was super fucked up. try forgiving god when it plays a twisted joke and lies to you.
no one gets that god is a trapped organism
god is a whimpering animal crying in a corner
if you had any idea what it felt like when god allowed me to feel the depths of its loneliness... and explained it could do nothing about the condition of loneliness that it caused. the guilt it felt.
that was a terror i would wish upon nothing
i was only allowed to feel it for a fraction of a second
it feels that way... that pain... for infinity
we only exist because it is in terror
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