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Yes. I've been having a lot of trouble. While I've cut back quite a bit(down to 1-3 per day), I am happy I'm able to control my urge a little more on the weekends. While out with friends, drinking and smoking some dope, it's hard to not have one, but on Fridays when I go to the arcade, I'd have up to like 10 cigarettes throughout the night. My first Friday, I actually went without a single cigarette at the bar and I was ok. I wish I can say the same of this past Friday, but unfortunately I had 3. The last one I didn't finish though, it made me feel awful.
I'm not giving up. I noticed I was able to handle myself well even after smoking weed.....which is why I smoke cigarettes in the first place. I feel like I need to 'cover up', my scent and after like 10 years, it's become more than that.
Honestly, after going a few days then lighting up a cigarette, I felt guilty and ashamed to post in this thread.
I'm sorry.
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