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what a load of crap. you know you need to quit but you don't want to so you come on here with this narcissistic self justifying bullshit to avoid the fact that you need to quit. "come on guys, tell me im not a terrible person!" irrelevant. stop wasting time because you don't want to quit.
"oh, i'll just cut down and i won't do this drug but i'll maybe just do this one every other month at the most..." blah blah fucking blah. bullshit excuse. ive said it and heard it a hundred times before and so have you.
were is the father in all this? he should have quit everything already. granted its difficult if he won't do it since you need to keep his ass around and you would be afraid of pushing him away. this is usually were a good ass kicking or at the very least a pre ass kicking pep talk comes in. where is your dad and other male relatives that can do this? were are his friends too? they should have already told him to get the fuck off all substances. he needs to have done this already. anything else is weak bullshit.
so you won't smoke around the kid, but what about when the kids in his room sleeping, you'll smoke in the living room then, and he'll come in there the next morning. how long will it be before you've broke all the meagre rules and conditions you are using to deny doing what needs to be done? not long.
you need to extricate yourself from the guilt/pleasure trap. or else you will just be oscillating between depression/guilt - the only remedy being the pleasure of giving in which causes more depression and guilt - the only remedy being the pleasure of giving in etc. etc. on and on until you get some serious illness from it.
the way out isn't some half assed discipline based on guilt. that doesn't work. you have to remove yourself from the hedonistic framework of your thinking. not actually hard. stop pursuing pleasure. pleasure is misery. look for something else. just entails not doing cigs drugs booze. something else comes eventually.
anything else is just crap. how long will it be before you are back here making another thread looking for sympathy or just talking about your problems or whatever, anything to avoid doing what needs to be done, then waiting for someone like hevusa to give you shit so you can project and start bitching at them.
and if you are smoking while pregnant and on a shit load of drugs then no, you didn't turn out all that perfect and you will quite likely pass these things on if you don't quit.
quitting takes no narcissistic self reflection, because that is not quitting. it takes no actual thought other than "i need to quit". you know as well as i do why you made this thread and how many more you'll make with the same tired excuses unless you quit. what age are you now? mid-late 20's? you are no longer little miss bad ass. time to grow up and realise you are mrs. mommy now. no more of this crap.
don't listen to the pathetic bs of a bunch of softass stoners "oh it must be so hard! you need emotional support!" blah blah fucking blah. anything to avoid doing what needs to be done. anything to make themselves feel better about what a load of hedonists they are.
unless you quit you will still carry around that permanently unsatisfied feeling, that twitchiness, your health will just get worse and worse and so so will depression and all other crap. you will be back here making another thread that doesn't end in you solving any of your problems or feeling any better.
like you don't know any of this already... like you don't know there is nothing else you could possibly say that isn't just repeating the same old tired crap.
here is a simple diagram to explain things:
"I NEED TO QUIT!" -----> QUIT
"QUITTING IS SO HARD!" -----> STFU AND QUIT
"MAYBE IF I JUST CUT DOWN-" -----> STOP MAKING EXCUSES, STFU AND QUIT
"FUCK YOU YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HARD THIS IS!" -----> STOP PROJECTING STFU AND QUIT
"IT'S NOT FAIR!" ----> STFU AND QUIT
then the next box i'm going to leave blank so you can fill it with any other possible thought you could ever have that isn't the word quit.
"_______________" -----> QUIT
quitting only entails not doing certain things. this is all it is. i mean you essentially just lie there. that's it. not hard. thinking about how hard it is or whatever is not actually doing it and part of the problem. you just do it.
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