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My motto in life is from that Helmet song "sinatra"... "I hate everything as much as I hate me."
...Heh. Not really.
I actually hate myself more than I could dislike anyone else. But I've usually gotten along with other people quite well. I was a lot angrier many years ago -- and many, many posts ago! -- but certain things in my life have made me realize that focusing on negativity is a waste of time. Of course, I can't escape a severe hatred for myself. I certainly have good qualities, but god, I just fucking hate myself so much, all the time! It's probably unhealthy, but it's something I've accepted, and I guess a lot of is probably stemming, subconsciously, from severe physical and mental abuse from when I was younger. I dunno. I just feel myself growing more and more unhappy every year, and less interested in the things I used to like. But to answer this thread, I can't think of anyone I really "dislike", I mean most of the real idiots I've met are easy to ignore, so why even think of them? I don't have any real enemies -- the "Enemies" I've made, I've usually ended up apologizing to, for wasting my time fighting with them, and if they're cool (which they usually are), then we're cool. You know? Even people who have severely fucked me over... well... I certainly get pissed off about them, but it's very easy for me to forgive. I also believe in karma. I think if people go around doing fucked up shit to people, eventually they're going to get fucked over themselves. That's why I try to be good. And I know I'm a good friend, and a pretty decent person... at least from society's perspective -- I don't litter! I don't speed... I donate to charity, I don't curse in public... I don't get into fights. I mind my own business. I try really hard not to gossip. I work hard. I don't break the law aside from the drugs (that I'm trying to kick). So, yeah, everything's good. Sorta... At the same time, again, there aren't many people I enjoy hanging out with. But I like just about everybody -- I find something to like in everybody, and everything, it makes life a lot more tolerable. So, yeah. Sorry for rambling.
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