Oh! No! Not yet man. But we want to start trying ASAP when we get back. Don't want to be overburdened with a wedding moving and then a kid lolll.

oh so it's not a shotgun wedding? i see

well either way it's very cool. looks like you guys had fun in weedlandia.

best wishes in the next step!

Lol God no! No shotgun wedding...Yeah we had fun....lots of fun. Hella shit to explore man.

congrats Rob! And Evol too
Unfortunately we don't have the two weeks notice over here, I will need to stay for another couple of months before I find a new company where I'm not treated like sh!t

i totally got dumped last week and moved that 22 y.o. psycho the f outta my house

id rather not go into details as ive told the story a million times over to friends and im exhausted. she's doing that thing where she keeps leaving stuff at my house so she has a reason to come back. lets just say ive learned my lesson, and shouldve listened to people on the board before rushing into things despite knowing her for half a decade prior.

ive blocked her number and im not answering the door anymore. i'll be a toool and call the cops if she comes back causing hassle. idgaf anymore

kept the water filter she bought though

*sips out of mason jar*

getting my house in tip-top shape. office is coming along good. nice little purple room to do work, play games, and practice guitar in.

will post pics of my pedalboard once i have it set up

oh man! i wont quote you for posterity but is it ok if i lol?

not out of any perverse satisfaction, just pure funnies

ah! teenage love is so fleeting :D

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anyway sounds like you dodged a huge bullet. good for you!

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and now you don’t have to pretend to be vegan, yes? ;)

bro, she went batshit outta nowhere. we had great sex one night, she slept in, woke up depressed and it was pure madness, dumped me the next day and started packing up her shit. like if i actually fucked up, i'd admit it. i still can't make total sense of what happened, and all i can really attribute it to is her being young enough where she wants to explore and me being at that point in my life where im looking to start settling. that's not the reason she gave, but it's the only one that's logical

ain't no teenage love here, i'm two years shy of 30! i'm a very accommodating dude with my own house, lots of hobbies/interests, decent looking, hygienic, fashionable, etc.

i just dont care much for going out and drinking, etc. at this point and social media seems fruitless. i'll figure out how to meet someone a little more age appropriate next time.

sucks too, cause we really gelled for a sec. 3 month "honeymoon period" ended and then WHAM

....

and no, never pretended to be vegan. i made it very clear all her soy crap was nowhere near as good as the real deal. i ate A LOT of baked chicken in her presence lol

sure, but didn’t you miss hamburgers?

confess!

i cooked a lot of meat here still.

she could not have opened more windows and exhaust fans to dispose the smell whenever i did

oh that hideous delicious meat smell

good grief lmao

have me choose between young pussy and hamburgers though.. idk bro hahaha

fine, i’ll erase

(but why not have both)

yup... that's officially enough internet for me for tonight.

cya tomorrow or something symbols

k man

and feel well

the deprivation wont last for long

lol its all good fam

you got a laugh out of me

i was joshing a bit myself

and yeah yknow, im aware i dodged a bullet

but man it just gets lonely being in this house by myself all the time

i dont want a roommate, strangers disgust me, and my friends are all slobs or my lower-class suburban lifestyle isn't "hip" enough for them (blow me)

i just really enjoyed the feeling of 'belonging' somewhere i guess. idk. i'm tired, man

Gotta get my mom on social security, become her legal guardian, maybe stick her in a group home for nuts

i just wanna start a family and life of my own already - fuck

why cant i have that? why cant i ever just have a normal family? wife and two kids, a dog, a 9-5. that's all im asking for

oh, buffy, you will never be normal

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and don’t sweat it, you’ll find a new girl—A BETTER ONE

(preferably dont meet her while coked up lmao)

Hamburgers I could turn down. Make it a chicken schnitzel, though, and I'd be in trouble.

i'm really not even into all the drugs and shit anymore man

i just want a wholesome existence, idk. my hero is spider-man. dead ass. like he goes around trying to save everyone, splitting his responsibilities and he's misunderstood. seen as a menace, and he never gets credit for what he does. does he get aunt may's heart medication, stop a bank robbery or meet up with MJ on that date? hes just trying to do the most good

like my mom and aunt were adopted from poland yknow? so like my moms the schizo weird one and my dad's the type of dude who impregnates a schizo. both are hardly literate, and i grew up sorta raising myself, locked away in my room beating my dick, cranking up korn cd's and playing nintendo - terrified of my mom talking to herself and shaking, taking her medicine, spilling it everywhere, staining the carpet

my mom's sister and her husband had two kids. whole family is very much right wing. super into the military, air force, Catholicism, etc. i'll never fit in with them, and i never have

ive been doing some soul searching and i think that plays a big part of why i am the way i am. idk. rebelling against that idea of perfection yet so desperately wanting to be a part of it.

everyone tells me i need therapy, but im so scared theyll put me on meds thatll hurt me physically, like whats beeen happening to my mom

its time to face my demons though, i guess. i just always thought that maybe with enough art i could escape all this shit. guess not. i was so good to that girl too. she didn't appreciate what she had here. *sigh*


i wish there was somewhere for me to hang my hat that wasn't like some alt-right misogynist rabbit hole.

you're a saint, Claire

I have descended from the heavens to bless these dark corners of the Internet. Now pray to me as your god.

no drugs? but i remember your new year better than you do ha ha ha

impregnating a schizo: look: not joking: someone had to! and here you are. don’t waste this chance.

somewhere to hang your hat: therapy! group is good too.

look, nobody can give you meds without your consent. learning to cope, dealing with survivor guilt, learning acceptance, etc, that is not meds.

the best education i ever got was 7 years therapy. ofc it took a few tries. some doctors are shitheads. but if you find a good shrink holy fuck it’s the best. like a priest without the religion. and they do groups which cost little to no $, depending. actually i had great shrinks. one who cured me and another who kept me sane in tough times. gotta try a few to find the one: like a pair of shoes.