if you love someone from yr past
 

but in reality there couldn't be any longevity to a relationship, due to the way you both are, not wanting to be tied down or held up.. and most likely they dont feel the way they seemed to feel about you in the past..

its just a weird feeling. I've missed her for months and when I finally see her its just so unfulfilling. because I still love her. it doesnt make me sad. Although I cried on the way home a little, Im not sure why(well it was because I was listening to the cure thinking about her), I think it was just overwhelming.

her hair had grown a bit, she looked healthy. new dress, same black crazy japanese converse. tired but well. i dont know. I worry because she said she went back home north for a while. north = drugs, wel, drug town.

she has a boyfriend up there or something. but she seemed pretty close with one of the housemates too. but thats how she's always been. sweet soul.


and I just still love her so much. its bizarre. I miss being as close to her as I used to be.

It's a mixture of wanting to try and woo her, get close again . But knowing it would never work out in reality.

its better to let go if you know it cant work. dont try and push for something that ultimatly could destroy you.

this is true.

but she is still an amazing wonderful person and I would love to keep in contact with her for that reason. and most likely will. but I think that.. I'll always end up feeling affection toward her when I see her.

I'm sure I just miss her far too much and Im whining because it hurts.

If I'm not mistaken, you're the first lady to openly talk about your love for another women on this forum. That's hot. :p

Rest assured that the love of your life is out there... somewhere.

Edit: I still have a soft spot for everyone I've loved in the past.

What size is yours?

Bragging about my size, would only confirm how small it really is.
Still interested?

Don't fake naivety with me, Tokolosh. You know what I'm talking about.

I know what yuou (pork) are talking about. To phoenix, sometimes feeling close to a person you love(d) is far worse than letting her go. If you don't necessarily share the same "environment" (how the hell do you say that in proper english?) I'd vote for --- try to keep the distance.
Can't articulate better.

Oh sorry. My mistake. I'm a size 8,5... shoes that is.

i have a 7 inch dick. no big deal.

anyway, my ex recently started writing me.. after 5 years of not writing me.. i realized why she's probably the best girl ever.. and she has told other people she wants to be with me.. we're both too shy to let each other know our real feelings, plus she's married and i have a girlfriend.. so i feel bad about the whole thing.. but at least i'm completely honest with my girlfriend.. she's not honest with her husband... the whole situation is shitty..

fucking firefox ate my last response.


I can't help you with any authority here. I've moved around too often to ever see anybody from my past.

I once got enganged to a girl that was a "redo" but it fell apart after having to live with her mother (the sex dried up and I couldn't be having that). I still love her in a weird sort of way though.

I hear that she's married and has kids. she lives somewhere near the texas / oklahoma border but I doubt I'll ever talk to her again.

hell, I couldn't get YOU to oklahoma, why would I expect anybody else to???

PS: I think I want to move to drug-town.

Im visiting okc as soon as I can get there without setting foot on a plane.

that's bullshit and we both know it.

besides, I don't blame you. I wouldn't want to come here either.

I told you, I'm moving to drug-town first chance I get. it sounds like fun.

haha.

my life is weird atm. I've learned from the past to not discuss a lot of my personal things on forums but, Im also dating a guy at the moment so that adds to my feelings of confusion that I cant really ever see anything happening with her. I dunno. I miss how we were.

we lived in the same house. worked at the same place. slept in the same bed sometimes. shared spiritual times and loveyness. each had our own seperate lives or relationships but also a very close one together.

I moved out on a count of both my own potential guy, and the fact the guy she was dating was a jealous fuck. I'd had stuff thrown at me. and he used to get really mad when we'd get drunk and make out and take clothes off in the loungeroom.

ffs dont guys dream of that?
anywya.

yearning for the past is evil!

its not that great. ahha. I gotta go,. but ill call you!!

sounds like a plan.

Good question.
I'm not really the jealous type, but I'm sure there are people who can't stand seeing their partner gripping someone of the same or opposite sex.
It's also apparent that her boyfriend isn't really interested in threesomes. He greedily wants her for himself.

I think she means the fact that despite her being naked on top of him, he still says "not now, I'm tired".

he's a panty stealing puss though. what can I say??

(:p )

well that's why you can't be friends with your ex. one day youre hanging out naked, the next day you're supposed to keep your clothes on. doesn't work that way, unless a looooong time has passed and you're in a different place emotionally. better to put some space between you-- though it can be hard.

have you been with anybody else since that breakup?

you need a rebound girlfriend :D

I would like to apply for that job.

you know, technically that wouldn't be adultery, since being a girlfriend doesn't conflict with being a husband. different body parts are compromised in each case.

you go, girl!

First off, thank you for making an interesting thread.

I'm always wishing for the past myself because of the people I loved. It feels like there's a gaping hole in your life waiting continuously to be filled. I often hate how some people change so drastically and influenced by others, that they're whole new people, and you have so much difficulty accepting it. I always feel like speaking with those people again, but I just genuinely don't like who they are now.

I'm the kind that will go out of my way to avoid them, bottle up my feelings, and maybe end up with a new wrinkle or something.

hahahahahahaha, this made me laugh.

it's always tough shit and you can't be friends with exs, fact.

my breakup with my ex was horrible, still, some 3 or 4 years later she tries contacting me in msn and i respond since i thought enough time had passed and things were better, we hung out a couple of times, it was weird but it was also good because before we were together, we were friends and i really missed her that way.

one day, though, as we were saying goodbye to each other, i gave her a hug and all of a sudden, i felt something for her again, it was really weird.

still, shit happened and i think she was looking for something else out of our reencountering (i suspect that) since we haven't spoken in a long time.

ED: bottomline is, i still love her, i will always do, but i can't be with her as friends.

as a side note, when we were still together, she offered me to have a threesome with her and another girl and i declined because i was more into her than anyone i would care. that's the only thing i ever regret of our relationship.

Hey don't sweat it too much @least you are in speaking terms as for me I have no such luck with my ex's I like to think that they all hate me for some odd reason. Maybe I'm just a bit too truthful & they can't deal with being commited. I just feel as if sometimes I have the worse of luck, I have girls that I know we have some sort of mutual atraction & it ends up that they are seeing someone. I can't stand the whole making eye contact thing & when it happends several times then I finally make a move to hear I have a boy friend. The shit urks me cause I then don't overstand the whole thing.

Woah, woah WOAH!! Are you me and am I you? Cos Jesus Christ it sure as hell seems like it. I'm in the same boat as you are on this situation. I had been away in Canada for the last 5 and a 1/2 months and my best friend Evelyn and I before I left were like that *crosses fingers* but when I came back...things have felt weird. It doesn't feel completly natural, conversation doesn't seem to flow and we always seemed to be trying to think of something to say rather than just shutting up for 5 minutes and being ok with it.

Anyway for my advice- leave it. see how things go. Don't feel forced to be great friends just 'cos you were. It upsets me to think that's how it's gonna have to be but if me and Evelyn continue to drift then that's the way things are gonna have to be and I'm sure your the same but that's my advice. People drift in and out.

I noticed the bloody sig! Wilde=Human Legend

haha no i wasnt talking about this :P

it's nice that so many people have felt the same way though.

I think it is perfectly normal. and part of life. maybe I'll write some bad songs about her or something. haha.

I find that too. until I realise its not really a hole. just a section of yr life that existed then and not now. life is linear, not a box. and I forget and meet new people or learn to just love that it was a part then and move on.

'sides. if you dwell too much you miss out on now.

this song is about joe...all my songs are about joe.

hahahahahhahahha.

Jesus, are you even old enough to have a past?

yes I am.

are you having an age crisis?

Our emotions tell us what we really think about something.

Love is one of the few things in life we have no conscious control over. Love and attraction is not a conscious decision, otherwise we would choose our lovers by thinking...

Oh well, she's really emotionally stable and her mom and dad, oh well they are just lovely, so I know she also comes from a great family. To add icing to the cake she works as a lawyer and makes a lot of money. Hmmm, I think i am in love with this girl.

A person may be all these wonderful things and much, much more. But the reason we fall in love with them is beyond conscious reasoning and thought. It is rather ethereal and unexplainable - and that is what makes it so wonderful.

I am sure we can all relate to the pain you are describing.

The best coarse of action, I think, is to make sure you do not let her slip out of your life completely.

The world is full of scumbags and life is too short to lose those we love and care about - and those who return our love.

Stay in touch and stay affectionate with her if that is what she also wants.

None of us can swim against the tide for too long - and if the right feelings and emotions exist between both of you it will happen naturally as a consequence of what must be.

so, phoenix, what's the story with pantyhead?

I'm going to be in trouble now.

although, personally, I find it hilarious that I've got someone else to call him that (because it's true).

Panties. They keep vaginas fresh.