If anybody here remembers me, and has some extra cash, help me publish a book or eat.
 

youcaring.com/haydenjoleroy

hi old friends. i have an undiagnosed mood disorder that is worsening and i was just forced out of my very good/lucrative job(on semi-decent terms but the suits can eat a dick there) and all of the sudden i am back to trying to sell some "medicine" to make enough to give something to steven every day. he pays for most of our bills with his check and my money was for gas, groceries and going out. now we get no groceries as 2 weeks ago i thought i'd be given a management position and then my manager forced me out over taking prescription pills(that i need) at work.

So, i'm kind of fucked. It happened like two days after starting a gofundme for my book/DIY publishing company so I feel like an extra super beggar but I would rather eat and like don't want to spam you with all of this stuff but here's the gyst.
I am getting worse daily
I have no healthcare even though i'm currently unemployed.
I think I want to live so I'd like to be able to eat.

I don't expect you to donate but if you can, please share on your respective FB,etc. Very sad little NB boy needs a month or two to get a diagnosis and lots of other things. If you don't have money, but maybe have like an old functioning laptop or a non-broken sprint phone or like any of the things we could use rn and i'd pay shipping. I have been off heroin for 16 months. I have cut ties with my abusive mother for 10 months. I want to feel better finally.




EDIT: I also may be able to sell things from chemicals to gero records i honestly just want to cam but i don't have a computer with a cam while steven is at work hahahaahahaha and it'd be weird to do while he's home i feel like although i am looking mental breakdown beautiful rn i weigh like 130 pounds and don't ever eat

aschehayden@gmail.com is my e-mail if you're interested in purchasing something also if you cant use youcaring my partner does have paypal

edit: srm1416 at g mail is our pay pal if you prefer that but seriously just share it on your FB page. I am losing my mind and no one seems to care at all. i have never been so forcefully unemployed and i've never been less sure of my ability to recognize when i'm unstable :) i have been forgotten because my mental illness is just my "drug problem" to everyone and I really want to feel better.

oh, hayden. i remember your young-and-evil days. don't know what's been up with you all of these years. cryptowondersomethingshomething showed up the other day to say you were never nice to him. lololol.

anyway, what is up with you? punch them in the mouth already, i say.

i am fighting really hard but i am trying to take care of myself. i am very nice now and am all about helping my underprivileged and abused friends/strangers.

i am on neurontin a lot of it and kicking my little baby kratom habit. i take entheogens to try and deal with the grief of losing my family(figuratively i cut ties with my parents and they literally wouldn't help me get therapy after i cried and begged because her and ema(that self-righteous twat sided with my mother very clearly)

people think i'm on heroin but i'm just a puddle of sadi
i can't see sttrqight

I wouldn't judge you even if you were on heroin yo..

damn. ages ago i was a little bit like that. well not like that but superdepressed in my own way. so sorry you're in pain like that.

who is ema? and steven? and im reading about what neurontin does (all kinds of things, it seems).

can't you get medicaid if you po'? i know it's a megapain to deal with government shit but might be worth the frustration... also if you were fired-- unemployment, ebt...

no support group/NA/etc?

Too late Hayden. You've been an arsehole to too many people online. Not even my 20 dollars is going to help you now. Good luck. I love you.

last 20 i spent was on a whore. sometimes a mans got to risk the std roulette, luckily i came up short. as for hayden, best to cut the parental cord early, once the pain goes away the universes indifference will be clearer to you and you will be forced to adapt to surviving with one of the biggest lifelines cut. make that transition now and go the whole way. you're setting yourself up for worse if you rely on it coming back.

im so busy surviving i dont even have time to post survival gear and shopping scores with symbol these days.

come ooooon! little hayden was hilarious.


next time add $1 for a rubber

He told me via FB that he hates you and he wishes you'd stop trying to sort people's lives all the time on SYG.

ha ha ha. who cares about these stories! i still like him.

he wasn't "eeeeeevil" and shit-- just had what old timey people called a smart mouth. maybe a couple of times he went too far but he was like what, 17? he prank-called chris habib at 3am or something ha ha ha ha. chris wasn't too amused.

anyway. good times. send him some money. and recipes so he can learn to cook for fucks sakes. porky's $20 should last him at least 5 days, if he actually sent it.

Word.. me too!

Hey guys, I have to go to the States next month to visit tne in-laws, plus I have to take a trip to spain next year for a wedding, I need to pay my friend back for my ATP ticket and Christmas is coming, and I got to pay for all of the above. Anyway, there's a much lower chance that I was jerk to you than Hayden. All donations welcome PM me.

jerk or not, you were never as entertaining as haydencito's reign of terror.

you need to try a different angle-- say that you're prettier and therefore more deserving, something like that.

The world is simply !@#$%!'s ground. Do your best and you'll do well.

that's far from your best trollbait

it's like you don't even care :(

You know very well I don't do trolling.

i don't know how else to process your apparent claim that i espouse some sort of horatio alger bullshit ideology

but anything to keep this thread going

whatever makes you happy mate.

yeah... this one isn't it.

i need dolla for rubber next time i visit my favourite crackwhore. i might also need shampoo and conditioner cos her greasy hair is falling out on my stomach rolls. also mcdonalds might be doing the cheese and bacon legend meal. all donations welcome.

do people not get that dispensing pep talks and advice is what symbolio just DOES? yall sound like that king that sat his throne in the water and demanded the tide go back out

oh, THAT. i appreciate the clarity of your communication.

that's just how i deal with my own problems. what the fuck else can i do? i have to figure it out or die.

if someone comes to me with a problem i find little use in saying "eau, the pain" because it solves nothing.

but okay then

"eau, the pain"

happy now?

and i should add, i'm not the one who came here to mock hayden, fuckers.

chill, i didnt mean it like that

hamden isnt being mocked as far as i can see.

none of our jokery can match the contempt the world has for people without money

being nice solves nothing

you are "the world"

--

lol that sounds like that terrible 80s song

but you know what i mean-- there is no abstract entity out there

we all choose what we do in this thread-- that's what's concrete

i wish i could help out, man. i have my love but i know that isn't much.

im here in hell pointing out the few sparse puddles of water and its still not good enough for you

aching hayden needs MONAY not this goddamn nicey nice shit

sorry, i didn't mean that you were the one attempting to make fun of his situation. i meant just to say that whatever we do here is "the world" in this case.


yes. by law he's got the right to receive unemployment, ebt/snap and medicaid though. i know first-hand it's very fucking hard to think about these things when depressed, but they're available.

https://youtu.be/NzspsovNvII

its a pity hayden isnt a ghetto black female

Actually he liked the nicey shitte too

yeah you're right, i was kinda talking about myself i suppose. really need monay for hurroin. donations welcome

I like you too. To be honest, you're just being a bit boring lately. I never thought I'd say that but you are.

eh! i'm sorry you're having that problem. sadly unable to help you at this time.

Find a new job.

Hope everything works out for you, seriously.

Removed from schedule but still considered employed so I kind of had to quit. I loved the job and can probably go back in the spring when it's money again(patio season is over now anyways) i have at least a couple jobs that want me and interviews at two very swanky places tomorrow.

Mercury is out of retrograde, I am 8 days off my silly little kratom habit and I'm doing okay other than the stress about money. Someone funded my whole book though so that's gonna be coming soon!

gabbi is just mad i wont bottom for him when in london