Because "beast" contains all of the letters of "eats" and a top hat is only decent protection if applied properly and purchased from a reputable source. The ringmaster secretly wants to be eaten. Maybe not so secretly.

the fucking cattleprods they use on us since childhood.

dead air blames capitalism but in socialist places its even worse

anyway-- surviving is the prime directive


ha ha, that sounds like a smokes commercial

I CAME.

If I wasn't a father, or if my son wasn't so goddamn cool, I'm not sure I wouldn't be wasting some time on self pity. But I already cashed in that subscription a few times past and now I'd prefer to get on with all I'm still capable of.

The god beast better just lay off my last surviving grandparent for a few more years though. I am not pleased with the level at which I've been tested.

Socialism is a form of capitalism, and you know that. Especially when you refer to "socialist states", they are nothing but state controlled capitalism. I don't have a solution or anything, people are greedy and we desire some way to measure who's ahead.

oh i just read that about your 2nd grandparent. shit piling on massively on you? sorry man--- but yeah the self-pity... best avoided. i prefer the rage, what alan dugan called "my favorite whiskey", ha-- not productive either but there's a redeeming side. anyway best wishes & keep kicking the fuck of those barriers there. or sometimes you can go around them, ha ha ha.

hmmm...

the bureaucracies of good behavior are atrocious

someone i practically grew up with is about to be kinda famous... so weird/awesome

http://hangout.altsounds.com/reviews...ilk-album.html

Did I mention Jacques Derrida before? Because I've just had to read the same paragraph 5 times to make sure that, yes, he is saying something at once astonishingly pretentious, brilliantly eloquent and effortlessly correct. The bastard.

music:

sonic youth : ATL
les thugs : nineteen something
rolling stones : flashpoint

movies:

indiana jones and the last crusade
la beuze

theater :

robin hood

comics :

iznougoud (19th album) : http://www.editions-tabary.fr/les-se...oud,1,1,42.php

reading :

this text : http://www.cestreparti.fr/profiles/b...ond-reading-of

see also 'thread for writers'

girls :

http://www.cestreparti.fr/photo/4631...1?context=user (but married, three children)

architecture :

art school in paris 6e

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8701863412120241475&ei=k8gwSeuZJYqK_QHM1tDfDQ&q=ma trix+of+power#

the fact that Joanna Newsom and Autechre's new albums came out within days of each over, and they are pretty much both perfect.

I had a dream after watching a documentary on Derrida that he was a demon that popped out of a modernist painting and we teamed up to fight crime, or something.

I called him Derider.

i can't say no

Zelda. Ocharina of Time MASTER QUEST(videogame)
5-MeO-DIPT(tryptamine)
Sylvia Plath(writer)
Cat Power(musician)
Sawatt Dee(Thai restaurant)
Alterra Coffee
KIDS(film)
Cocaine
Acid Mothers Temple(band)
Mescaline

I must explain something about these three. As far as the Foxy Methoxy and Mescaline are concerned, I mean 'mindblowing' in the best possible way. My first experiences with these chemicals were the two most introspective, productive, personal building experiences of my life.

Where cocaine is concerned, it's more of cocaine's constant begging for me to use that blows my mind. Cocaine is one of the most unreasonable chemicals ever. As the effects set on, the pleasure is unbelievable yet, at the same time, completely unsatisfying. Every time I use cocaine, I complain about how it doesn't even get me high, yet continue to shell out hundreds upon hundreds in a night on the shit. I still can't wrap my mind around why all my brain wants is coke, yet when I'm on coke, I'm still not satisfied. Ever.

my imagination.

and this is why it's the stupidest drug ever.

you take coke - it's like a red bull that feels heavy in your head for 15mins and then you want more coke. this is literally all it does. make you want more coke.

when i used to do it it would be £40 for a gram. so me and my friend might buy 1 gram - 20 each. then 25 mins later we would go back and buy another gram each - and then another gram each and then i'd have like £30 to live off for 2 weeks.

it is so easy to get addicted to coke - if you keep taking it this will happen.

one of the fucking most stupid drugs ever. it should not be taken in its current form. maybe in the future when we have a better understanding of the brain and what chemicals are in it and what chemicals can do to it - maybe then there will be smart drugs safe to take. but coke is not one of them.

as to the pleasure being unbelievable - this was not my expierience. it was crap. very little happened. it just made me anxious and pepped up a bit. so what. and anyway, for fuck sake it's not like you need it to feel pleasure. it's not like taking it or other drugs does anything but make your brain incapable of expieriancing pleasure without putting substances in it that damage it, and even then its not pleasure your feeling, its just that you feel different because you've finally put some crap in your brain, because you can't handle sobriety anymore because of all the damage and your re-wired dopamine flow.

if you get addicted to coke, you are fucked. even if you get off it without dying, most people turn to alcoholism, your brain is so damaged you have now most likely induced an aritificial form of schizophrenia. i met a girl in a hospital who had managed to kick it, she had basically gotten nearly obese and switched to alcohol. someone found her out hiding in the bushes in the enclosed yard of the ward, she was out there alone but believed there was some man out to get her, and so she was hiding. she really believed someone was out to get her and was cowering in fear. this is what you're going to do to your brain.

i used to have a friend that nearly died because of it, he was one heartbeat away from death in the back of an ambulance, the nurses were asking him what drugs he had taken so they could administer something to counteract the effects, but he had taken so much and couldnt even speak so they couldnt risk giving him anything in case it had an adverse affect on something else in his system.

he told me this a few days after getting out of hospital at 3am as we walked the streets together, ending up outside the coke dealers house of course so he could go get some more.

coke is like spyware in your brain that will override any sense or rationality and just make you take more of it, no matter how much it fucks you up.

and all for what? to prove how much of an edgy nihilist you are because you take drugs? for some stupid fucking "i go against the rules look at me i'm so real and cool lets party" bullshit? whatever stupid idea of danger or authenticity that its prohibition has bestowed on it. the truth is its simply dangerous and unnecessary.

so yeah, don't mean to bring down the whole thread, cocaine is a hell of a drug, i am just angry with it tbh. but with enough time and abstinence you can be healed and i will never accept that anyone is too far gone to recover.

1. really good pizza
2. being able to walk out
3. sun ra
4. sex while in love
5. concoctions
6. inappropriate outfits
7. second chances
8. vogueing
9. getting dumped
10. indian food

strokes

this is one of the saddest things I've read in a long time.

1. being good pizza
2. really able to walk out
3. sex ra
4. sun while in love
5. inappropriate
6. concoctions outfits
7. vogueing chances
8. second
9. indian dumped
10. getting food

1. eating three hash brownies and peaking as Phish is ending their second encore after two 1 and a half hour sets.
2. a perfect fit 69 with my lady
3. the view at the Grand Canyon, no matter how many times I see it, it is always amazing standing there
4. the Rockets winning their first NBA championship.
5. Cross The Breeze turned up to 11
6. Bruegel's art
7. House of Leaves by Mark Danielewski
8. sitting through a category 4 hurricane from 10:00 PM to 6:00AM with no power. so LOUD
9. going to NYC and realizing it ain't all that
10. Astronomy Picture Of The Day

also.

blood meridian
absalom, absalom
for whom the bell tolls
gravity's rainbow

raw doggin virgins

that there is no more raisin toast in the freezer. It fucking blows my mind.

what the fuck. :(

Boredoms - Super AE
FlowerCorsanoDuo - The Radiant Mirror
Radiohead - Ok Computer

Musicwisethatis

'Call of the Wighat'
Cairo
Dancing to 'Strings of Life' in a field.
Fishing
Fucking way above your station
Trevor Brooking
Girls fighting
Elvis' 'American Trilogy'
Invocation of my Demon Brother

Gettin hooked on blow is lame and only possible when you're loaded with cash. It goes good with tequila sometimes but what a boring ass drug that makes you anxious, over talkative and impotent. Take EX.

My beard.

Coke is bad - n'ik said it. There's little redeeming about it. The price sucks, you're often snorting what's been up people's asses, it's cut to shit, and it can be pretty mentally damaging.

I had a horrible experience with coke. The first few times that I had it, I had a blast. But I ended up doing it at a party once and it was terrible. I was shy, then took it, and became immediately social and talking at a very fast rate and had my eyes open very wide, to the point that people found it pretty weird. Now I didn't know anyone at the party, so they started questioning my behavior. My eyes were all http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2523/...be8c14504c.jpg. I heard them talking and my buddy said "dude, people are noticing that you're acting a bit odd". I got pretty paranoid and I was also coming down at this point, and sat down waiting to leave and spectating conversations. I just wasn't 'all there' and nothing made sense around me. People started thinking I was autistic or schizophrenic on top of being on coke, and were being total douchebags like trying to talk about conspiracy theories to me.
The experience demonstrated how someone is treated when having a strong psychotic mental illness and how closed-minded some are. But anyway, you get the gist.
Cocaine can make people pretty psychotic, and transforms peoples personalities if they get addicted.
Just take some pure molly a couple of times a year and you'll be MUCH better off.

Yeah, I've stopped doing taht stuff last month. I noticed how I am and well...it's kind of weird sometimes. It sure as hell gets you talking to people like nothing....but...yeh. I also start "chewing marbles" if ya know what i mean and my jaw is sore the next day and well it's super hard to suppress the jaw's movement.

yeah fuck cocaine, it turned my best friend into a psychopath and he got on even heavier drugs and cased close.

Tried it a few times, thank god i never got into it too much. Can't understand why I didnt get addicted to it. I'm more addicted to pot, makes no sense.

^SAME HERE. IT IS QUITE APPARENT HOW ADDICTIVE MY PERSONALITY IS. iT JUST PISSES ME OFF IN THET LONG RUN

forgot my caps lock sorry

the best thing about coke is, meth heads can't afford it.

however, the most mind-blowing thing of all is that people still use it.

that said, if you find yourself in need of ridding yourself of an addict (any will do), simply tell them (as frantically wild eyed as possible) that they "are welcome to come inside, but the place is REALLY hot as the cops have been around asking about them. of course I told them I have no idea who you are....but they might still be watching so you better come in".

in no time at all, they'll be out of your hair.



I hope this helps.

:)

this is why I stopped.

^ well......I was in the presence of a person I cared about.

Yeah certainly, it makes me chew too and also dehydrates me as much as molly. Ugh horrible shit...


Same...I'm sticking to the occasional morphine, and I don't do anything else.